Lately, I’ve stopped. I’ve emotionally and mentally just stopped functioning. Im so tired of being sad, or mad, or worried, or frustrated but it seems like I’m always in a state where I find myself in either one or all of these emotions simultaneously. God, I’m just so fucking tired. I’m so fucking tired of trying to act so strong and stable. It’s fucking tiring. Growing up and barely having your parents around, ive compelled myself to learn starting at a very young age to become impervious to critics and society but as I grew and developed more and more into my adolescent years, I’ve realized how hard it truly is….it just really sucks. I’ve stopped realizing what I was living for. I’ve stopped trying to act like I don’t care. I’ve stopped trying to act like I’m totally ok and that I’m so invulnerable. And honestly, I don’t give a f.

On top of being totally mentally unstable, I haven’t eaten in 12 hours… HOWWWWWW am I still functioning. Weeeeeeeeeee

Stop pitying yourself. It’s really not attractive and it’s not going to get you any attention from anyone… Seriously. That whole “my life is so fucked up”, “I feel so alone and lonely”, “I’m always the victim” shit you say is getting real old. You put yourself in all these shitty positions. YOU. You had the chance to clean up the mess you’ve made with me, but instead you didn’t. We haven’t spoken to eachother in a little over 5 months and it’s hard to believe that we used to talk to eachother everyday and be best friends. It’s sad. But, that self pity shit you do to make you seem like the innocent one is fucking annoying. I hit you up asking you to talk it out with me. You ignored me. Don’t fucking ignore me. Kick me, punch me, curse me out but don’t fucking ignore me. So I’m done being mature about this shit. I’m done trying to affiliate myself with you. I put my pride down just to hit you up, but whatever. You’re a nobody now. I know I’m being bitter and immature, but I really don’t give a fuck. Your life, your drama, your everything is now completely and totally irrelevant to me, so I’m done caring. Bye biiitchh :) youve been dropped.

1) People who constantly write their whole life story on their Facebook status….. NO ONE CARES! When did Facebook suddenly become peoples little diary. Please, just shut the fuck up. You obviously just everyone who’s your friend on Facebook to know how you’re feeling every second of your goddamn existence which is totally unnecessary. Attention whores… LOOL.

2) I hope you’re fully aware of what you got yourself into. You can now say that you have NOBODY and actually be legit. Cause it’s true. You have NO ONE. You deserve it too. Ditching your friends who were only looking out for you, who were standing up for you? That doesn’t seem at all logical. You should have chosen your words wisely instead of being a whimsical retard and shouting things at your friends without even realizing what was coming out of your mouth. But the damage is done. When that dirty girl of yours fucks you over again, good luck having your own back from now on. I mean, that’s what you said you wanted. You leave all your friends who helped you when you were at your lowest, for a girl like that? That’s really funny to me. A few days? Weeks? Months? From now, you’re going to realize the mistake you made and how much of a dumbass you are for making it. Too bad.

3) you’re a whore. Goodbye.

4) I’m so annoyed at the fact that you always want to get to know every single person I’m friends with. It’s like you want to become friends with all of my friends. It’s not a bad thing but I need some fucking space. There’s a reason why I have a separate set of friends. You never introduce me to your friends because… only god knows why. But once you meet mine, you act like you’re best friends with them…. It’s really annoying and it kinda makes you seem like a desperate social climber…. LOL.

4) Am I really giving up my pride for you…. Is it really worth it?… Fuck. Just don’t fuck me over.

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(via xsharonseo)

People need to use the brain God gave them cause some people are dumb as fuck. How the fuck are you gnna start bitching at me for something I did, when you, yourself just did it literally 5 seconds ago? Then you’re gonna start getting pissed because I called you out on it? WTF. Just shut the fuck up and sit the fuck down. Impulsive people…. Think before you act or you’re just setting yourself up to look like a dumbass in front of everyone. I don’t understand how after that you’re gnna tell me to calm down because I reacted to what you said. You think telling me to calm down is really gnna make me calm down? DUMB FUCKING CUNT. You must be retarded. That’s the only logical conclusion to why you act the way you do. God, I feel bad for you. I really really pity you and the people who have to see your demented face every fucking day. How do they live with you without attempting to murder you every 10 seconds. HOW.

Breaking night to study for my math test tomorrow. Got my first 78 in that class last test -___- can’t let that happen again, so I’m gnna drink tons and tons of coffee and slap myself every few min so I stay awake. Haven’t broken night in fahevaaaaahs. I’m probably gnna be so dead and lethargic tomorrow. And I guarantee I won’t be in a good mood, bear with me guise :’) muahzzz

I found out who my true friends are.

Talk shit all you want. Run your mouth till your voice is gone. Make up the dirtiest nastiest rumors about me. Do as you please. But one thing people need to know is that I’ve never ever been afraid to hit a bitch. That’s it.

Is it really necessary to hop on every single boy’s dick the first several times you meet them? Really? Is it? You’re just setting yourself up to get made fun of and called a desperate fuck. Like just relax. Obviously your tactics aren’t all that helpful being that every boy you’ve even remotely tried to get close to dipped on you the first chance he got. Like c’mon now, you’re not dumb, take a fucking hint. And yeayea~ who am I to be questioning other peoples motives right? But really, it didnt all that bother me the first several hundred, maybe even thousand times you’ve done it but I really would have thought that by now, you would the common sense to say to yourself ‘HEY! Maybe my ways of trying to score these fellas aren’t working at all! Maybe I should try some new ways!’. But frankly, yah don’t. So god bless you sweet child. I pray that you may find a man who will look past all of this and will love you even though you really, REALLY are a desperate fuck. :) Xoxo